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A Little Bird

29 Jun , 2018  

A mourning dove smashed against my living room window, the other day. I’d just been thinking about all the birds that had done the same, over and over again – they never seem to learn. It’s not as if the glass is so clean they can’t see it; by now, they have to know, too, that it’s there. The windows are high up, for a house, but it’s hardly like ramming into a skyscraper or the windshield of a 737. They fall a ten or fifteen feet. Some go on to recover in mid-air, while others land, dazed, in the garden. Most gather their wits before the neighborhood cats find them, flying off while the chittering squirrels I call the “Peanut Gallery” mock them for their folly. Now and then, one lays panting and broken on the hot concrete, surrounded by empty peanut shells.

There’s a female cardinal intent on breaking into my house with nothing but her sharp, orange beak. She pauses, glares at me, and furiously resumes pecking. This goes on for hours. Someone suggested that perhaps she sees her reflection in the glass, and believes she’s fighting off another bird. I wonder if she doesn’t just hate herself – and me, for giving her a mirror that reflects her beady, angry eyes.

I left Twitter, this week.

I’ll be back, when I am feeling more like a wise old owl and less like that tiny little cardinal with its ruffled feathers and hate-filled eyes. I know that the squirrels know where all the nuts are buried, but will dig up the the herbs and peppers in my garden for fun while “searching” for them. Hosing them down with ice water grows tedious, even as my aim grows better. The parasitic cowbirds lie in wait, hoping that the mockingbirds abandon their nests while pretending to be cats. I have locked the nest away for safekeeping, from cowbirds and cats, alike. When the garden smells more like mint, peppers, and peanut butter than the tail end of a squirrel, I’ll be back.


8 Responses

  1. Sorry to say, that will likely be a long wait.

    We talk about the naïveté of the early websites, what with their garish fonts and epilepsy-inducing color choices and flashing images. Nobody wants to return to that, either.

    Hopefully, Twitter will go the way of MySpace, opening the door for a more mature–or, at least more robust–platform for social interaction.

    Cheers,

    Mitch

  2. rummuser says:

    They must have been hearing motivational speakers about how many times they fell down and got up to finally succeed.

  3. Aleta says:

    It sounds like you have the live version of “Angry Birds.” (My husband and son enjoy playing that game.)

    Blue Jays are very territorial in our neighborhood. They chase off other birds (and cats). They are known for gathering together and defending their nests against hawks as well. It’s pretty wild to watch. But they don’t attack the windows 🙂

    • Hi, Aleta! Welcome back. 🙂 Yes, the birds do seem to be angry with one particular window, but maybe they just see their own reflections (the window isn’t so clean and you’d think they’d avoid flying INTO my living room) and maybe they are just being belligerent to that “other bird” they don’t recognize as themselves. I don’t know, but it’s sad when one dies over it. I’m glad most don’t die, but go on to sit stunned and angry up there with the squirrels. I had one I THOUGHT was dead, once, and a friend reached out, picked it up, and it hopped upright and sat in her hand, recovering, for about 15 minutes before flying off.

  4. Looks like you’re back on Twitter… of course you are, since we’ve been talking! 🙂 Glad to have you back, but we still have Telegram if we need it.

    • Telegram (and even WhatsApp, although it’s owned by the evil empire) are more fun.

      But then again, it would be so easy to build a sweet little bubble with only pleasant people in it, and forget all about the real world, and that’s not an entirely good or safe thing either.

      Glad this thing is working again. Or… Sort of?

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